I never win things. Regardless, I just did something I never do. I bought a raffle ticket. I never do this because I never win, and probably one of the reasons I never win is because I rarely buy raffle tickets. or chinese auction tickets.

But this is different, because the ticket is 100 bucks, and the prize is $100,000.00. And a hundred grand would solve a lot of my problems...

Also, the kid that convinced me to do this for his yeshiva was really cute - he told me that I win olam haba and maybe in olam hazeh, also. And the drawing is in two hours!!
So I gave him my credit card number...after making him promise to pray for me. And pledging some of my winnings to tzedakah.

Then I decided that some tehillim wouldnt be a bad idea, so I started to daven. Then some thoughts crossed my mind.

If I have alot of money, am I not really me? Being frugal and wondering how I am going to cover this month's bills is part and parcel of the ME that I know. If you take that away, will I not be myself somehow?

I once heard wise words from Rav Segal (manchester) He said as follows: Everyone has tzoris in life. Pray that your tzoris is financial, because all the other tzoris are worse. So if I get one hundred grand, and my money "tzoris" are solved, what?
Will this be a good thing?

SO as I am praying, my prayers are kind of half hearted already. DO I really want to win? Do prayers that are half hearted get answered?

And another thing. There is only one winner. So maybe there is someone else out there who is in a desperate situation and they need the money so much worse than I do. If I win, they cant. How would I feel about that?

Sooo, the question is, should I call them back and tell them to cancel the credit card charges and tear up my raffle?